meagan614 asked:


I messed up with my boyfriend my invading his privacy and he got a litter more mad than i expected. I wanted to talk to him but he did not want to. I have an anxiety problem and i started freaking out (crying, not letting him leave, etc.). I said that I was breaking up with him because he doesn’t need me freaking out on him like I do… I thought that comment was ignored because he later said that he needs to think about if he still wants to be with me. His sister texted me saying you guys broke up? and I called her and she told me that my boyfriend told his mom that I broke up with him. Lovely that he thinks he’s single.
Anyway… he’s messed up too, but he doesn’t know i know. I’m planning on talking about it with him later. But right now, the main focus is how I invaded his privacy, but I think the biggest issue is how i freaked out. So, I wrote him a letter telling him how sorry I am. Chances are he doesn’t want to talk to me but I’m sick over this. His sister said she is going to help me out. Regardless, I need to find a good way to deliver this letter…
Also, I am 17, a senior in high school, he is 19, a freshman in college. When i went to talk to him about how I invaded his privacy when he got off work, he got very angry that I was there and he DID NOT want to talk to me, at all. So, I fear that if I deliver the letter personally, he will just tell me to leave him alone. We’ve been best friends for 3 years and have been dating for 2 years.

Here is the letter that I wrote… any suggestions on improving it would be greatly appreciated!

Corey look. I’m going to be straight up with you. I don’t see how it’s fair that I’ve given you a million and one chances on so many things and you can’t give me a few on working on my trust issue and my freaking out problem. You finally got a lot of the things I’ve given you so many chances on right and I think that in time, I’ll be able to get things right too. I’ve given you many, many chances to earn my trust back as well. I need you to work with me to solve these problems, instead of just getting so mad and wanting to break up with me… relationships take a lot of work. This isn’t the point, but I have midterms coming up and I’m seriously a mess without you. I talked to my mom about my freaking out and she said that maybe we should put me on anxiety pills until I can learn how to control it myself. I’ve realized that freaking out just makes everything worse and I’m dead serious, I PINKY PROMISE you that I will do everything in my power to stop it. I miss you like crazy Corey and I’ve held myself back from texting you so I can give you space… just like you wanted. Nikki told me that you told your Mom that I broke up with you… well, when you left Friday night, I was under the impression we were still together because you said that you needed to think about this. I know I said that I was breaking up with you because you don’t need me freaking out on you like I do but I thought that comment was ignored. While you don’t need me doing that, I didn’t mean to say that I was ending things, I said it because I was really upset and I didn’t mean it. You did the same thing the other day, you said you broke up with me and then you took it back and said that you never want to break up… well that’s how I feel too. If you’re able to take it back, I should be able to as well. It’s making me even sicker to think that you think you’re single when I think we’re still together and you’re just thinking about us. I think we can make us work because we’ve changed so many things about ourselves and what makes it different this time? We’ve come too far to give up now. Two years to end it over something that I can change about myself… oh and, there have been many times where I thought you went on my MySpace and read my messages because I’ve looked in my inbox and there have been messages read that I didn’t read and you’re the only one who has my password… and I really didn’t care. But that’s just me and we’re two different people. But now I know that it really does bother you (which I didn’t know in the past because you never really got mad about it… and I need to respect what you want from me). I know we’re young and a lot of people probably think we’re ridiculous and retarded, but we always talk about how we’re going to spend the rest of our lives together. And honestly, I can’t picture myself growing old with anyone but you. Even our friends talk about how they think we’re going to get married one day… they’ve fought over who will live next to us and they’ve talked about who will be in the wedding and such.
All in all, I’m truly sorry for what I did to invade your privacy and I’m even sorrier for freaking out like I do. Like I said, I pinky promise that I’ll do all I can to change those parts of me… and I’ll work on my negativity too. Just please, give me a chance to show you what I can be and what I’d do for you… like how I’ve given you chances in the past. I really ho
I’ve forgiven him for lying on many occasions. and the big one was that (during the spring of 07), he messaged this girl [a good friend of his ... who i was suspicious of] and she had asked him if he liked her and he responded with : like a teeny crush but like no
meaning he did have slight feelings for her, but he wouldnt persue her bc of me.
and, he used to be quite the liar.

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